Although I started the day pretty early, I also started the day pretty hungry.
All I have left at this point is two 3oz tuna packets and about a cup of rice. This is bad…
While I was taking a rest and refilling water, Honey Bee and Hidalgo passed by and pointed out the green onions (scallions) that were growing alongside the trail. YES! FOOD! I pick a handful, rinse the dirt off in the stream, and start chomping away. I kid you not, at this point, the sensation of chewing and swallowing is euphoric, and I’m honestly not sure if my eyes are watering from the onions or from the joy. I pack up some scallions for later, and push on.
I try to control myself as best as I can, but by 3pm, I have eaten the remainder of the tuna and rice.
Closer to 5pm, I meet Feelins, another hiker on her way to Muir Trail Ranch (MTR). “I think it will be closed by the time we get there,” she says. My heart sinks. But as any reasonable person would do, I resort to denial. Hope was the only fuel I had left. So we push on (At this point I’m moving at a snails pace at best, and soon Feelins is way ahead).
I arrive at MTR just after 6pm. At the gate, a young lady informs me that they are closed for the night, and won’t reopen until the morning. Is there any way I can get my bucket, please? “Sorry.” Can I at least check out the hiker box? “No, it’s all put away.” Then what am I supposed to do? “Up that hill is where all the hikers are camping out. You can get your bucket in the morning. Sorry.”
I’m broken. Hope is lost.
I drag myself up to the campground. I pass by Feelins and the other PCTers laughing around the campfire. I just want a quiet place to lie down.
I find a spot and all but collapse. As I lie there, hands over my face, I try to convince myself that I can do this, it’s just one more night. I guess I can eat the scallions?
I slowly get up and very sloppily set up my tent. One of guys form the group next to me looks over and says “Hey, do you need some hot water? We have a bunch here.” Hot water? Why? “No thanks, I’ll be good till the morning,” I say, unsure if that was the correct response. A few minutes later he comes over and apologizes. “Sorry if I offended you, I was just offering you hot water in case you were going to cook, to save you the trouble of boiling it yourself.” Oh, now I get it… “No, I’m sorry,” I said, “I ran out of food a couple of days ago and I’m really really out of it.” Pointing back towards his camp he says “Well come over, we have a bunch of food we were going to throw in the hiker box tomorrow. You are welcome to it.” SERIOUSLY?
I walk with him, he sits on a chair and I sit on the ground next to it. He introduces me to everyone in the circle, his two sons (with whom he is hiking the JMT), the Royals (a couple also hiking JMT -whose real names are Will and Kate), and Singularity (a JMT hiker who happens to be a physicist and also lost a boot once in an attempt to throw it across a river). A bucket is handed to me – M&Ms, trail mix, peanut butter, tortillas, olive oil… SERIOUSLY? I ask, “can I take from here without discretion?” He chuckles, “Pretty much, just leave a little. We promised to help out one more guy.”
I ate. And I ate. And I ate. (I even took some to go). As I began to feel better, I joined the conversations. Everyone was great. I was especially inspired by the two young boys holding their own on a trail that nearly took me out. Also, by their dad, who was not only awesome enough to take them on this trip, but was also willing to carry a lot of extra weight to make it possible for them to do it. Major props, Hartz family.
I went to sleep with a full belly. I passed on the scallions.
19 miles.
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I want to recognize the kindness, the straight up, unadulterated kindness that I experienced during my time of struggle. I think it arguably saved my life, and it definitely saved my sanity.
To all of you: THANK YOU
Ben
Phil & Gosia
Not You
Derek
Nelson
Cool Hands
Hartz Family
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Morning in Muir Shelter:

Hiker Salad:

Hey John:

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